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Steve is very calm and matter of fact about what's happened between them, when they wake the next morning. He disentangles himself from Tony gently, ruffles his hair one last time, and stretches, sliding out of bed. Neither of them ever finished their coffee.

Steve limits his chatter to Tony to the usual 'good morning' routine, carries the cups to the kitchen and washes them, and generally tries to be as low key as he possibly can about it. He doesn't want to embarrass him, and he really doesn't want to scare him away. He assumes, perhaps wrongly, that acting like cuddling with Tony for most of the night is just routine is the best way to approach the situation. At least Tony can rest assured Steve won't be sharing any private information with the others.

He gives it a day, going about his usual affairs, training and sparring, going over intel, trying to predict where they might be needed next...but while the others finish dinner, he goes looking for Tony specifically, trying to catch him alone.

Date: 2017-05-10 12:13 am (UTC)
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Tony has not been nearly so calm. He'd played it cool around Steve himself, largely because Steve seemed to want it, and then disappeared into his workroom at the first opportunity. And stayed there, though there wasn't exactly a ton of work getting done.

Mostly he's been rocking himself back and forth in his computer chair, brain chasing itself in circles as he tries to figure out what the hell he'd been thinking the night before. Not just the poorly thought out foray into kink, but then spending the rest of the evening using Captain America as a teddy bear. Just the thought of it makes him want to drop his forehead against his desk.

Except it had been...good. The sex itself had been fine, sure, though it was marred by remembering how he'd felt right after. No, what his brain has mostly decided to focus on is being tucked comfortably up against Steve. Steve offering to hold him down. Steve wanting to.

He has, at least, done his research in between his phases of self-flagellation. And there is...more there than he'd ever dreamed of, even for someone who hadn't exactly been celibate for a few decades. Fluffy handcuffs were apparently entry-level. Who knew.

He's in the middle of reading through it again -- just out of curiosity, of course -- when FRIDAY lets him know that the Captain is looking for him. Of course he is. Tony finds himself shifting a little, some mix of an urge to continue to avoid and a nervous anticipation fluttering in his stomach. But he finally sighs and let her know that Steve can come find him int he shop.

Date: 2017-05-10 04:24 pm (UTC)
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"Hey," Tony returns, his tone slightly guarded but not actively antagonistic. He has no idea how to play this, how he's supposed to react. And even just seeing Steve now is making his pulse race, which is probably a sign of...something. Tony's not going to attempt to parse that out now.

He glances up at the Captain for a moment, almost searching, then leans forward to snag the cup. At least he comes bearing gifts. Tony can be reasonably sure he didn't screw things up too badly if Steve is still willing to bring him coffee.

"Yeah, sort of," he says, one side of his mouth ticking upwards into a slightly wry smile as his eyes flick towards Steve again. "There's...a lot of it. More than I expected."

Date: 2017-05-11 03:51 pm (UTC)
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The upright-and-attentive posture can't help but make Tony smile a little before it's hidden by the coffee cup. Good to know that whatever this is ranks up there with getting chewed out by Fury. But the expression fades in favor of something more serious as he puts the cup back down.

"I guess that's the first thing," he says carefully, taking a moment to really weigh his words for once. Tony has a bad tendency to just blurt out whatever's on his mind, but even he knows that's not going to work here. The last thing they need is to get into a screaming match over something stupid.

"What's in this for you?" It's not accusative. More like confused. "I don't...really get what you'd be getting out of it." And if it's just for Tony's sake...he can do without being a pity fuck for a friend.

Date: 2017-05-15 01:35 am (UTC)
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Tony can't help but blink once -- he'd been expecting something like I think we'd have fun, not this sudden outpouring of honestly. It makes his eyes flick away for just a moment, finding something fascinating on the far wall. He's not good with heavy emotion, never has been. Giving or hearing it.

But this is something more than just offhandedly suggesting a fun evening. At least, Tony's pretty sure it is. But either way, everything he's read has been very clear on the fact that open communication is important. So if they're doing this, he's going to have to suck it up.

"Okay," he says, making himself meet Steve's eyes again. "So, to be clear. I do want to try this. With you." He lets himself fall quiet again. Then, since Steve's admittance is probably worth something in reply, "I trust you."

Date: 2017-05-16 03:30 pm (UTC)
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The smile that flashes across Tony's face in return is wry. "Have you ever known me to be particularly easy to influence?" Last night aside. It all seems foggy in retrospect, but not...uncomfortable. At least, not the parts with Steve involved.

And that's really the crux of it. He wants that back, that easy comfort. The ability to just reach out without worrying about appearances or personas. Knowing someone could or would just take care of him for a moment.

Problem is, he's still not entirely sure how to ask for it.

He lets out a long breath and reaches up to scrub a hand through his hair. "We remember that I have no idea what I'm doing here, right? You...clearly do. So we'll start with you."

Date: 2017-05-18 03:49 pm (UTC)
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There are still faint marks around his wrists. Tony had almost forgotten about it, though following Steve's glance at his arms makes him almost want to cover his hands for reasons he can't quite identify. He doesn't. Mostly out of sheer stubbornness.

There's a lot to think about to take his mind off of it anyway. The idea of Steve subbing is startling -- and okay, that will teach him to make assumptions -- in a way that's already sparking ideas, but definitely needs to be tabled for later. Much later, probably.

"Let me start," he says slowly, fingers tapping an absent-minded rhythm on the desk in front of him, "by saying I'm willing to try a lot of things. In general, yeah, but with this especially. I don't know what I like yet, and I don't think I'm going to figure it out if I don't actually experience it. But."

He takes a breath and forces himself to hold Steve's eyes. "I don't want you to hit me. I definitely don't want you to insult me." Those, at least, he's very sure about. There's a lot of connotations there, with who they are and what they do. Even in a controlled setting, Tony's pretty damn sure that wouldn't go anywhere good. "I'm not looking to be taken down a peg or brought to heel or anything. I just...

"I think a lot. You may have noticed." He smiles a little wryly. "Somewhere in what happened, I stopped thinking so much. That, I liked. A lot."

Date: 2017-05-29 03:28 am (UTC)
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Steve Rogers just said fuck. Tony looks a little like he's having a harder time processing that than the rest of the conversation.

"I. Sure?" He says, once he's shaken his head to clear it. "I mean, all of my experience with guys is years old at this point, but it's not exactly the kind of thing you forget." And sex with Steve is...not something he can see himself turning down. In this context or out of it.

Though that does bring something else to mind. "So if this is a sexual thing...and a recurring thing, I think?" His tone lifts at the end to make it a question, but it's more rhetorical than not. "How exactly would we be defining this relationship?"

He's a scientist, he likes having names for things. Sue him.

Date: 2017-05-29 09:40 pm (UTC)
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Tony makes an extravagant show of rolling his eyes, even as the word sub makes him pause for a heartbeat. That's what this is, and he knows it, but something about having the actual word submissive out there feels...off. Unsettling. Stark men are made of iron.

He pushed all that to the side with a wrench of mental effort. More things to pick apart later. Really, this entire thing was giving him more insight into his own mind than most psychologists he'd ever seen. Whether or not that was a good thing remained to be seen.

"Defining the relationship, smartass," Tony says dryly, as if his brain isn't whirring away at ten other things. "Fuckbuddies is fine, but is this monogamous? That kind of thing."

Date: 2017-05-31 07:27 pm (UTC)
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One of Tony's eyebrows twitches into something wry. It's not as if he's not well aware of the general opinion on his relationships. Even if they are nothing like they used to be, he does have a reputation for a reason.

But he does at least take a pause to think about it. The other night had been an aberration for a lot of reasons, though he doesn't blame Steve for possibly assuming otherwise.

"Agreed," he says finally, simply. Honestly, if Steve hadn't been there, that first experience probably would have been enough to put him off the entire thing. He's not all that eager to try again with an unknown and he's far past the age where he felt a need to try things just for the sake of trying them.

"So the next question is. What do we say if someone asks?"

Date: 2017-06-01 03:03 am (UTC)
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He can't really argue on the first part -- being a nosy bastard is practically part of the job description even if they didn't all live together, but it's not like the team is going to judge whatever they get up to. Well. They might give them shit for it, but Tony's pretty sure they're at the point where nobody's taking it seriously.

For the rest...Tony exhales hard as he leans back and folds his arms across his chest. "Depends," he said finally. "There are different ways you can play it. Obviously the...details of it are nobody's business but ours. But if we were going to actually go public with a relationship."

He trails off, eyes going distant as his brain runs through all the options at once. Well, there was always a possibility that they could just keep everything to the tower and spend the rest of the time as business as usual. But even to Tony, that feels wrong somehow. Maybe they aren't going steady or however Steve phrased it, but he's not going to pretend it means nothing to him just because the press can be assholes.

"Honestly," Tony says slowly, letting himself focus back in on Steve, "I'd be most willing to just wait and see if anyone noticed and then play it from there. But you're the one who'd be catching the worst of it. There's nothing anyone can say about me that hasn't been said before and everyone knows it. But you...you haven't had a major scandal yet."

Date: 2017-06-03 10:26 pm (UTC)
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Tony quirks an amused look at him -- just because there's no reason it should be a scandal doesn't mean someone won't try to find a way -- but wonder of wonders, he just lets it go. Gives Steve a slight shrug and a flicker of a smile.

"Fair enough. And there's always a chance this whole thing turns out horribly and we never want to try it again and then it's all a moot point anyway." That's Tony. Always trying to give himself an emotional way out, just in case.

But he just clears his throat. "So anything else we need to cover? I do have a request, if you don't mind."

Date: 2017-06-04 08:28 pm (UTC)
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It's the word pursue that makes Tony pause for just a second. It's not that he doubts Steve's intentions at all, and he's clearly on board with everything, but a dark part of Tony's brain still can't help thinking that this is something Steve is just willing to help him out with. That it's for his sake. Reminders that no, Steve is definitely into this, wants this, are still catching him off guard.

He'll get used to it. Probably.

As it is, he shakes his head slightly to clear it. "I told you I'm pretty much willing to try anything, right? And I am. But I'd...like it if you told me what was going to happen, first. I don't need you to narrate everything or something like that, but like. A quick rundown before we get started. Let me know what to expect."

Hopefully, it will help him handle his reactions better. He may be willingly giving up control at least for a little bit, but he's never quite going to be able to stop trying to manage the world around him. He thinks Steve is already aware of that, he's not exactly subtle about it. But it doesn't hurt to get the point across.

"What's yours, then?"

Date: 2017-06-05 02:34 am (UTC)
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Bondage is fine, that's pretty much where they started with this to begin with, the askance look Tony can't quite suppress is more at the idea of just...hanging there while Steve draws him. It's not that he objects, he just can't imagine that someone as, well, twitchy as he is will do well with enforced stillness. But what the hell, he's trusting Steve with the rest of it. If he finds it objectionable, he'll say so.

But Steve is still talking. Tony blinks once in response. And then lets out a completely startled laugh. Out of everything they've talked about so far, kinky sex and all, that's what Steve feels a need to specially request? The incongruity of it is amazing.

"Really? That's all?" Tony's still grinning wide like he can't help himself. All showmanship, he suddenly throws his arms wide. "Why wait? Come kiss me, you fool."

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